growing up

friends will let you down. it's all in how you handle it. years ago, tears ago...I would've held onto the hurt and let it be known. not so much now. Just add it to the list and remember it. but don't dwell on it.  growing up. Life is full of surprises, that is sure, and letdowns and disappointments...carry on. Let people go their own way and make choices based on their own needs, not yours. Very critical thing to understand. It has not ever been all about me.
and should not be.

5 and 21

february 2012. Emily will be 21. An adult. that is so hard for me to grasp. She's been my little girl forever. She's a young woman now, fiercely talented, fiercely brave, amazingly sharp and funny, brilliantly artistic, brash, cool as ice and warm as the sun. I admire her so much. She makes me laugh and cry and eat. Cheesecake with Emi is a holy experience.
and Jake, my little guy, will be 5 years old. No longer a baby. no longer a toddler. A little boy. He's smart as a whip, funny as his father, will big ideas and plans. Sharing life thru his eyes is extraordinary and exhausting and exhilarating, all at once.
Aj is in the middle, keeping me smiling and keeping an eye out for me. I adore him. My children fill my heart with gladness. 16, driving his own car, getting me ice cream and making me proud on the baseball field and in the classroom.
I must always remember that no matter how trying life can be, those 3 need me,love me, think I'm funny, know I'm goofy and are the greatest accomplishment of mine to date.